Disclaimer: This page may contain affiliate links. We may earn a small commission for purchases made through links in this post, at no extra cost to you.


by Caleb Esquilin
(Amityville, NY, US)

I can't remember the last time I remembered to remember the thing I often forget.
I can't remember the last time I recaptured a story from my past and didn’t combine 1 story with 3 other from my own past and the past of someone else.

It's the butterfly effect...
But I can’t remember which came first.
The butterfly?
The caterpillar!
Or was it the cocoon?
I just don’t remember….

I can't remember the last time I was asked a question and answered it without first losing my point on a ramble, just to find it again 5 minutes later….

As a child, I often got into arguments.
I know what you said!
You said to be here on Tuesday at 3pm!
But they asked me what I wanted for dinner….

I just can't remember the last time I remembered to remember the thing that I often forget….
Sometimes I forget how to spell my own name. Looking down at the page and the spelling just doesn’t seem right.

Waking up, looking in the mirror and forgetting what I looked like. So I touch the mirror to know it’s there.
To know that the person I don’t remember is staring at me as if they know me.
But I do finally remember, that I can’t remember.

It took years of being told, that my memories of old are new to those who know the true stories.
Much denial in the realization that the good memories along with the bad are long gone and buried.

Archeologists would never dig up my past because my documents are flawed. My history is lived but told in a way that’s unwritten.
And written in a way that was never told.
I just can't remember..

I can't remember the last time I remember to remember the thing that I often most forget….my past.
But at last. I remember
I remember that I can’t remember
So I try to remember to remember to document.
But remember, I have a horrible habit of losing things…

And this book is my memory.
Now I have to remind myself to remember where I put it.
Then remind myself to look for it and try to backtrack my memory because I knew I would lose it but forgot to remind myself to remember to make a note of where I put it.

I just can't seem to remember to remind myself to remember the thing that I often forget.

Myself ….

Comments for Remember

Average Rating starstarstarstarstar

Click here to add your own comments

Jan 13, 2023
Call it a game ... like hiden treasure.
by: Helena

Good morning...sadly it happens to most ms patients. But it also happens to several other people not suffering from.
Society makes us multitasks in order to gain more out of the time.
I find that acting consciously, or saying loud the last activity help me remember.
Also keeping things arranged in the same spot and replace immediately when needed, is a good habit.
I find myself in a really awkward situation when I can't recall a name... I apologize as fast as I can so I don't blame myself at all. It happens to all anyway.
So we keep going on considering this a hiding data mind game 🙂 🎮
Love 💕 +Light to you

Click here to add your own comments

Join in and write your own page! It's easy to do. How? Simply click here to return to Want to Share a Poem About MS?.

Buy Me a Coffee at ko-fi.com

Dear Friends,

"Life in Spite of MS is a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means for sites to earn advertising fees by advertising and linking to Amazon.com. We're also part of the Ebay Partner Network, another affiliate program."

We'd also like you to know it doesn't cost one cent more  when you click through the links here on our blog. Not one single penny. And we will make a little extra cash when you do click through. We'll be ever so appreciative. You also have our word that we'll only link to things that we would use ourselves, (or wish we could have or use).


Cir & Akrista

You are reading original content written by Akrista or Cir L'Bert of Life in Spite of MS. If you enjoyed reading this blog, please consider following us on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and Instagram. See you there!

Enjoy this page? Why not pay it forward? Here's how...

Would you prefer to share this page with others by linking to it?

  1. Click on the HTML link code below.
  2. Copy and paste it, adding a note of your own, into your blog, a Web page, forums, a blog comment, your Facebook account, or anywhere that someone would find this page valuable.

Privacy Policy ~ Advertising Policy ~ DisclaimerContact Us ~ About Us