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Balancing MS

by Adrian
(New Jersey )

The balancing act of life with no balance.

Adjusting to PPMS with tragic optimism.

Since being diagnosed, I have thought a lot about the duality of life.
There are two sides to a coin, but still the same coin.
Good and evil.
Life and death.
You have to find the balance.

I have to think about walking. Each step I take. Lift your leg.
Heel. Toe.
Move your hip.

I am grateful for walking.
Made it to the beach! Walked up and down the boardwalk!

Using a cane on the beach. I can feel people looking at me. I know they aren’t doing it in a disrespectful way. Their eyes inspect me with kindness or pity, or just to think, I wonder what happened to her? And I hate it. It’s humiliating.

And when I take that difficult walk across the sand I also feel strong. Yes, look at me go! I’m so strong! I won’t let this disease keep me from doing anything!

The future. Will I dance at my kids weddings? Reading about primary progressive multiple sclerosis makes me think the answer is no.

And then I have a good day. And then I feel almost normal. And then I think- I’ll be okay. I have so much to be thankful for.

Tragic Optimism.

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Aug 23, 2021
by: Helena

Dear dear...thank you for sharing your thoughts.
You must know, we, this thinking, is what crosses the minds of all of us... we just secretly whisper to ourselves. I'm strong. I'M STRONĢ... I'll be better tomorrow...keep the faith. Blessings. Love. Light.😇💚🙂

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