Why me? What did I do so wrong to deserve this? I made mistakes in the past but I tried to make up for them. I try to be a good person. I have overcome every obstacle that has come my way. Why do I now have one that I can not? I am so damn angry! I am so damn scared! I want to scream until I can not scream anymore. I want to run until I can not run anymore. But neither of those things will help so what is the use. I don't know how to lean or depend on other people. I have always been the rock. Show no fear, show no weakness. Always the strong one, That was me. Anything could knock me down and I would get right back up. Why can I not get back up this time?