My Marriage is Failing...
(Chester, SC, USA)
...Since I Have Symptoms of MS
I want you to know you are an inspiration to us all. I have not had an official diagnosis of MS, but I can assure you, I have been through the ringer and my husband is either in denial or he does not want to be with me because of my inability to be "normal" again. I am only 43 years old and I feel like I am 73.
I had to have an implant of an electrical stimulation device for my bladder; otherwise, I would have to use a catheter all the time. Next, I have optic neuritis and lost part of my sight in one eye. I have difficulty with balance, dropping things, tripping and falling, migraines, fingertips are always numb, the pain throughout my body is excruciating.
My husband has not touched me in three years because he learned that I am sensitive to touch and he has become more and more emotionally and verbal abusive toward me because I don't remember conversations we have or I cannot communicate effectively with him anymore.
I am slowly losing him and my soul is hurt to the core due to his abusive controlling ways. I so want to make our marriage work and I do not know what to do. I know I cannot fix everything. He does not want to go to counseling and he does not want to read about my agony.
I am currently on disability through social security but the fact that I can no longer work, he is angry about that as well. He has called me worthless this past weekend and I don't know what to do or if I should even stay. I really have nowhere to go because he controls the money.
I look for inspiration and hope and pray so much. I ask of you, please pray for me and for healing.
Love and Light,
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